Lets create. Something free and wild. How do you tame a wild bird? How does one gain respect from the underworld? I want you to show me how. Tell me how. Let me feel it. Grasp it. Then whisper on my back so that I can touch base with reality again. And know that it is in this room. Dripping down the walls and into your dirty sheets. You will soon be consumed. Enjoy. It never lasts as long as it should.
I woke right now at 12:00 am to find a lightning storm going on in my town. Lightning storms fascinate the hell out of me. Its like mother nature roaring like a beast in your face and waving her shiny dagger at you. Tonight was different then any other night I have experienced it. My candles were lit and the door right next to my bed was open. I felt so compelled to take a walk outside and watch the beauty of it. As I did I noticed the stillness in the air and how crisp it was. My parents live in Sonora so you can imagine redwood trees and mountains... I felt as if I was the only human in the world watching this storm, and as I sat outside in the middle of it I started to even cry. I felt that I had realized that my feelings of being overwhelmed with my everyday life was just ridiculous and it reminded me that I am small, and that there is something bigger out there. Not in a religious way, but in a balance of life way. I have never felt so overcome by something so beautiful. I heard a dog start howling in the distance after a long period of time which sort of shook me out of my thoughts... then it began to rain. Thank you mother nature for that moment... and that is was. I had to share. If there is a storm and you are able to go outside and just sit in it.. even if for only a moment, do. Its beautiful.
